01 · Philosophy I keep returning to.

Mind.

  • Why people suffer·
  • Whether meaning is discovered or invented·
  • The line between good and evil·
  • What makes a life worthwhile·
  • Why some relationships survive and others don't·
  • How much of personality is choice·
  • What curiosity itself is
02 · Directors I rewatch on principle

Cinema.

  • Stanley Kubrick·
  • David Lynch·
  • Studio Ghibli·
  • Beautiful failures·
  • Films that trust the audience

Every film and show I have rated →

03 · Paintings & prose I live inside

Art.

  • Northern Romantic painting·
  • Caspar David Friedrich·
  • Johan Christian Dahl·
  • Moonlit landscapes·
  • Shakespearean tragedy·
  • Ballet, especially Swan Lake·
  • Ruins reclaimed by nature·
  • Lonely figures in vast landscapes·
  • Storms at sea·
  • Melancholy without despair
04 · Listening rooms in my head

Music.

  • Classical, all of it·
  • Progressive metal·
  • Britpop·
  • Garage rock revival·
  • Moody Americana
05 · A dark, tailored world

Style.

  • Oversized English trousers·
  • Crisp dress shirts·
  • Tall coats & capes·
  • Eyes Wide Shut masks·
  • Glasses, always·
  • Artistic rings shaped like animals·
  • Silver necklaces·
  • Silver lapel pins & cufflinks·
  • Victorian-patterned ties·
  • Fedora hats·
  • Textured leather belts·
  • Wooden-soled leather shoes·
  • Long boots·
  • Raincoats
06 · How a room should feel

Space.

  • Cozy, small, lived-in rooms·
  • Patterned wallpaper·
  • Warm yellow light·
  • Victorian & Greek detailing·
  • A real fireplace·
  • Dark wooden doors·
  • Archways instead of corners·
  • Dark wood interiors·
  • Worn leather·
  • Indoor plants, everywhere·
  • Paintings on every wall·
  • Dead flowers in a vase·
  • Patterned carpets·
  • A big TV, sofa pulled close·
  • A bed too big for the room·
  • Candles & lanterns·
  • Detailed spoons & utensils·
  • A coffee corner·
  • A shoe-shine corner·
  • Windows onto trees & train tracks·
  • Fallen leaves indoors·
  • Easter eggs scattered through the room·
  • Hand-painted appliances — fridge, TV, the lot·
  • Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves·
  • Wall-sized mirrors in the dressing room·
  • A big mirrored bathroom·
  • An oversized shower head·
  • Libraries·
  • Old train stations·
  • Hotel bars at midnight·
  • Rain against windows
07 · Foods that are worth the effort.

Food.

  • Pancakes, flawless and faintly divine·
  • Quzi, slow-cooked·
  • Yalanji·
  • Steak, rested·
  • Risotto, done right·
  • Penne arrabiata·
  • Rocket (arugula) salad·
  • Sushi·
  • Sunflower seeds, by the bag
08 · What ends up in the glass

Drink.

  • Cocktails, more or less all of them·
  • Sex on the Beach, ordered without irony·
  • Jägermeister, very cold·
  • Beer, very cold·
  • Iced V60·
  • Peach iced tea·
  • Black tea
09 · Engines worth the silence after

Road.

  • Porsche 911 Turbo S·
  • Aston Martin DB11·
  • Ferrari 488 Pista
10 · Travel, weather, slight danger

Wander.

  • Rain & thunderstorms·
  • Solo travel, big cities·
  • Nocturnal urban exploration·
  • Secret European alleys·
  • Arboreal retreats, off-map·
  • Deep mountain hikes where no one has been
11 · A Greek-god frame, and tolerance for pain

Body.

  • Inhuman training volumes·
  • Endurance past the point of reason·
  • Strength as a default state·
  • Sitting in discomfort, on purpose·
  • Breathing exercises·
  • Streching & mobility·
  • Balance·
  • Meditation
12 · The software taste behind the day job

Craft.

  • Total control over my stack·
  • Linux, always·
  • Suckless philosophy·
  • Go, Rust, Svelte·
  • Self-hosted everything·
  • Sorting files and data like a maniac
I am worthy because I am curious, not because I am clever.
a note to self